Working life – part 2

As always – when I mention any neurodivergence my experiences are mine and mine alone. I don’t pretend to, or try to, speak for anyone else. I am diagnosed ADHD, and highly likely Autistic but can’t be given an official diagnosis due to my Autism not visibly affecting me (ie: no one else can tell unless I let on).

It really does feel like Part 2, or Act 2, of my working life. So at the age of 52 I finally got myself a job that pays personal leave, annual leave, and public holidays; and is manageable with 4 kids without burning myself out. Even the way I got this job was brilliant and made me so happy 😁😂

In the first half of the year I was propagating my plants and doing a bit of virtual assistant work, and decided that I was ready to get more work. B was doing fine in grade 1, E was settling nicely into grade 4 and her Autistic needs were being met, and my older two were settling into grade 11 and first year of Uni. So I started to look for more VA jobs and also put an ad in a local FB group that I was available to be a “Parent Helper” which basically meant I was available to go and help look after kids if needed while parents were busy getting things organised for dinner, or for the next day; be an extra pair of hands to help with housework; babysit if parents wanted to go run errands or attend appointments without needing to take their babies/kids; or wanted to be able to go for a run, catch up with friends, or have some “me time”. (If anyone reading is looking for a job idea there was so much demand for this – you just need to be willing, have a blue card, and insurance.)

I loved doing the parent helper job, but I was finding it a bit physically demanding and draining, so unfortunately it wasn’t going to work for me long term; and while I’d found a bit of extra VA work it wasn’t really “working for me” like it does with my long-standing client. So back to the drawing board. I decided I wanted a job for the regular income and super, I wanted it to be local and within school hours, I wanted something that wasn’t overly demanding, had a bit of variety so I’m not getting bored, something that I could “leave at the office” at the end of the day (even though with ADHD that’s almost impossible), and I didn’t want to go through the soul destroying process of looking for a job. I wanted someone to just say “Hey, here’s this job, do you want it?”. I figured that last one was a pretty tall order, so I did actually look at jobs on Seek and found there were a few that almost fitted the bill.

And then one day I was on my local FB community group and someone made a post along the lines of “Hey, here’s this job, if you are interested send me a pm for more details.” So I did, and a few back and forth emails later, a trip into the office to meet the other staff and check out what the job involved, and I was offered the position 🙂 It meets all my requirements as listed above, it’s 6 mins away from school and home, and I can wear whatever – jeans, tshirt, and gardening boots, or runners are just fine.

Random Image #2 But kinda symbolises a journey I guess.

I will admit it’s still been a bit of an adjustment to get my head around all the different parts to the job, and also learning to work in a small office team. I’ve been there almost 4 months now and I feel like I’m getting into the routine of things, although there always seems to be something new that crops up whenever I feel like I’ve got everything under control. Just to keep me on my toes. 😉

The main challenge now is to fit work into the rest of my life without it being too much for me. I was in a good place with my anxiety/stress levels and now that I’ve added in work, I need to probably take something away from another area to balance it. So far I’ve been doing all my normal “mum work” with school, managing 4 kids and their respective challenges, the house, etc, although Mr T has had to step in more as I’ve been falling a bit behind with it. And I haven’t been able to tend to my plants which I think I really need to do as it’s a mindful activity, plus it gets me outside, and I enjoy it.

I’m also having to learn how to apply some strategies for managing my ADHD in the workplace. I already knew I couldn’t rely on my memory – instead I have paper and pen handy so I can make notes. If things come into my in-tray I’ve started to put a note on them to remind me what I’m supposed to do with it. I have procedures written down for all my different tasks so that I can refer back to it (when I remember) and I am having to work a little differently than others might. For the most part that’s fine, but sometimes I get an odd look or comment, as people wonder why I can’t “just do it”, and why I’m bothered about something that “only takes a moment”. Mind you that’s not just at work so I’m kinda used to it!

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For example, I work better if I’m not switching focus too much. When you have ADHD and are focusing on one task it’s often much easier to keep going with that rather than switching back and forth, so while I get told to just ask questions as they come up, for some things it’s better for me if I keep going and then ask at the end. This is particularly true if it’s going to be more than a one or two word answer. And for some people it would be no big deal for a side task to take a couple of seconds, but for me it’s at least double while I reign in my mind that has just gone off on a random tangent in those couple of seconds.

I also find it’s easier to maintain focus if I’m not having to physically move too much – I only just put this together. For example the other day I was sending emails off and making notes on a paper form as I sent each one. I found that I was much quicker if I made a spreadsheet with the names, send the email, tick the spreadsheet, move onto the next one; if I did it the first way then each time I moved from the computer to the paper (pick up the pen, look for the name, make the note, back to the computer) it took longer. It’s such a small thing, but as soon as my focus goes away from the computer, when I come back it takes me a couple of seconds to remember what I’m doing. And it’s not just the time, it’s that disconcerting feeling like my brain has gone blank in those couple of seconds – like that thing when you go through a doorway and instantly forget what you are doing there.

Actually I think that’s one of the main reasons I have just set my two monitors up to be both facing the front of the desk, rather than having one on a big angle. I thought it was just for my posture but no… I was finding that I had to physically move to see the second screen and by doing that it was really easy for me to “forget for a second” what I was doing. By having them both in view and only needing to turn my head I can maintain my work flow much easier.

So for things I want to get done quickly, maintaining focus is key and is less taxing for me, whereas other times switching focus is like a nice little break. My mind can go for a little wander and stretch it’s legs as it were. Fortunately my job has a nice mix of tasks so I get to do both.

It’s all a bit of a process, and I’m finding out how “ADHD” I really am, but I am also really enjoying the job and I’m determined to make it work. I do think that the variety of jobs I’ve done in the past, particularly working with customers and clients of all types, has given me some skills that will come in very handy in this role once I get past the learning phase. And once I am there I can let my ADHD hyperfocus kick in and see what ideas it come up with 😉

When September ends….

(AKA September 2022 Update)

What a month. Mainly it was all about my new job and trying to get my head around all the different things I do. So far all boxes are being ticked which is fantastic. School holidays threatened to put a spanner in the works but Mr T was able to work from home the days I was working, and go into the office on the other day. And as my head started to settle, and I got used to the routine, I was finally able to get back out to the garden!



And what a state it was (and still is) in! The asparagus bed has one sole plant surviving I think, the netted bed and herb bed were pretty much just weeds, and the tomato bed was a combo of weeds, borage, snow peas and a few tomato plants. I managed to weed that enough for the tomato plants to actually produce some tomatoes (mini amish and mini san marzano). And as the snow peas were on the edge of the bed they did quite well – except I didn’t trellis them properly and they ended up sprawled over the lawn!

I made some more strawberry jam and all the pots I gave away were returned with a “that was delicious” 🙂 It was a bit runny so I’ve been reading up on how to perfect jam making and it seems the trick is to keep in some of the less ripe strawberries and any green bits at the top as that has more pectin than really ripe fruit. Also adding some lemon juice as the acid helps the pectin to form properly. Next time!

Making the most of it

I’m sure I’ve done other posts about making the most of leftovers and little bits of fruit/veg before they are past but I can’t find them! So I’m going to search and link to them here, or repost the info. Those of us responsible for shopping and feeding the family are increasingly feeling the rising costs and looking for ways to save or make food go further, me included, and so being able to find these when I need them will really help.

One of my latest creations was this stirfry veg and noodle dish. We had a bag of coleslaw veg that didn’t get used for it’s original purpose so I fired up the wok, a splash of sesame oil, and threw in the bag of veg. Added a bit of teriyaki marinade and soy sauce, a packet of wok-ready udon noodles, and then a little more soy and it was ready to eat. 🙂 It made a nice lunch and there is enough to have tomorrow as well. If I had any leftover chicken that would be nice in it as well.

Earlier in the week I was clearing out the fridge and found a few things that were destined for the compost/bin – some mushrooms, chorizo, ham, a bit of tomato, and half an onion. I chopped up and fried off those until softened and then put them in a bowl to cool. Once they were cooled I added a couple of eggs that I whisked up, and then some fetta that we happened to have in the fridge. I mixed that together and then poured it into a baking dish, grated some cheese on top, and then into the oven for 20 mins until cooked through.

I usually make this and spoon the mixture into a muffin tin, and that works better for me – when I cut the one from the baking dish it crumbled. You can make this with pretty much any veg/protein mix you have, and then once cooked and cooled it freezes really well. I flash freeze them by putting them on a baking tray, on baking paper and not touching each other, and into the freezer. Once frozen I put them into a bag and then back into the freezer. I reheat by putting into the microwave for a minute or so until heated through.

A similar thing to the above frittata but a bit less “eggy” is to make savoury pancakes. I make them based on a recipe tin eats recipe, but vary the veg depending on what I have. They can be frozen as well and make a great breakfast option for me.

If we have leftovers that won’t make a whole meal (like one portion of curry, chili, casserole, savoury mince) then we make pies either in the pie maker, or I’ve made “handpies” by just putting a little filling in a square of pastry and fold over the corners.

I’ve posted before about freezing vegetables before here, and when I was at the shops the other day they had 2 bunches of celery for $4. That’s quite a saving so I bought 2 and we will freeze most of it. We don’t use it uncooked, only in cooked dishes or stocks, so freezing it is the best way to keep it. And I read about using celery leaves in dishes, just like any leafy green, and so I froze some of those as well. I have previously dehydrated them and made up a seasoning salt with them – that was successful as well.

July – August 2022

Ugh I forgot to do a July update. It was a busy, busy month to be honest. Here’s the post that explains why Something I do when I’m feeling overwhelmed is head to the water for a bit of a reset. It always helps 🙂

So I have been working as a mother’s helper for a couple of mums, and a virtual assistant and then a couple of weeks ago I spotted a small post in a local Facebook group asking if anyone was interested in a sales and client admin position in a small, local, publishing business, that could be done within school hours. A bit of back and forth email, a phone chat, tour of the office, and I start Tuesday! So now I have a job in school hours, which leaves me time to still help one of my mums as I do that after hours, and the virtual admin, as it’s only a few hours a week and can be done after hours as well 🙂 So I’m excited! It sounds like there is enough variety in the job to keep my ADHD mind happy, and being a small team with only 3 other people, and no dress code, I think my Autistic self will be happy too.

Another thing I’ve been doing in the past few weeks is getting my stall a bit more organised. I have the ability to take card payments, bank transfers, as well as cash obviously. And I sold one of the birds nest ferns that I propagated! That was exciting – I told the customer how I’d rescued the parent plant, it died off, and left me with 3 little baby birds nests. I still have one and I think I might keep it.

I’ve also donated some more plants to the Little Gnome Mobile variety bash; and this morning connected with a local that is cooking meals for people doing it tough at the moment and dropped off some groceries. I do love connecting with community like that 🙂

And this morning I finally sorted out my tomatoes and snow peas and gave them supports to grow up. I had put a trellis up for the peas but they grew higher than I expected and fell over. That’s actually all that’s really growing in our garden – well apart for a few lettuce and herbs. And a malabar spinach that I’ve been nursing along and hoping it will take off. Oh and the lime tree.

It’s a little hard to see but I did weed around the tomatoes and there is now a horizontal bit of mesh that they can grow through for support. Last year I ended up with two or three layers of the mesh as the tomatoes grew right up to the top of the support! And my snow peas are going to be a bit hard to harvest as they have intertwined so it’s like just one big mass of vegetation. Ah well, I’ve already harvested heaps from them and if we get a few more before the plants give up I will be happy!

And on the cooking front I made some strawberry jam with strawberries that I had in the freezer from last year. Bought when they were a dollar a punnet; and a frittata with some leftover bits and pieces and veg from the freezer. I normally cook it in muffin trays but thought I’d try in one big tray this time. I’ll go back to the muffin trays next time as it’s easier to manage if you are freezing for breakfasts/lunches later.

Oh and my neighbour gave me a few ripe roma tomatoes from her garden so I grabbed some coriander, lime and chili from our garden, plus a store bought onion. Threw it all in my handy-dandy Tupperware chopper and made a salsa 🙂 I didn’t quite get the proportions right but it was very tasty all the same and so easy to do. I don’t work for Tupperware but this is by far the best hand food processor I’ve used. And saves getting the big one out if you are only doing a small job.

If I remember (hahahaha) I will update here for the rest of August. Hopefully with how the new job is going!

Money, money, money

Must be funny…. yeah, maybe not so much for the majority of us! I read something recently about how the issue isn’t that we should be saving or making a few dollars here and there by whatever means, we should be rallying for higher wages. Well, yes, we should be asking / expecting our politicians and businesses to start paying proper living wages; but when you are struggling to make ends meet and living pay to pay, those few dollars can make a huge difference! So I thought I’d list some of the things that I do in case they are helpful to anyone else. Note that these are things I enjoy doing, have the ability to do, and have the time for. They are obviously not for everyone.

A few of the things I do to make a little extra are:

  • recycle containers – I take mine to a reverse vending machine but even less time/effort if you use bag drop off or collection;
  • collect FlyBuys and Everyday Rewards, but I never spend just to get points, it’s always money I’d be spending anyway;
  • cash back from Cash Rewards, Shop Back, and banks – ING gives you cash back on utility bills and HSBC gives you cash back on all purchases up to $100. There are conditions, but they are easy to meet.

I was curious how much I made doing some of these things and over the past 6 months it’s come to just over $1300. Which is not bad for very little effort. I also sell plants through an honesty stall which was another $1000, but that’s more of a hobby and more effort. Of course doing those things is not for everyone, but I enjoy doing them. If I wanted to I could do surveys and market research, and I used to, but now that just bores me to tears 😉

Something I really wish I’d started earlier is investing. Although when I was younger it was actually harder as you needed $1000’s to get started. Now you can start with as little as $1 with micro-investing apps, or $500 to invest through a CHESS sponsored broker. I finally made the leap into it last year, just relatively small amounts, but I’ve been getting dividends. No matter how small they are it’s exciting! Talking of investments – I’m a low income earner, so don’t get a lot of employer Super contributions, but if I put in $1000 myself I can get the government co-contribution of $500 so I’ve been doing that for the past few years.

The flip side of making money, is saving it. They say for every $1 you save it’s like making $1.30 before tax. So here are some of the things I do to save money:

  • checking the weekly catalogues – Woolies and Coles are my main shops and the catalogues come out on Monday’s at 5pm. I write down the specials for things that I would normally buy – the specials go in cycles so I buy enough of whatever non-perishable groceries to get me through to the next time it’s on special.
  • meal plan for at least a fortnight based on what we have in the freezer/pantry;
  • do a monthly pantry top up shop – I get a 10% discount once a month from Woolies for having a mobile with them, so it makes sense to use that on a big shop.
  • make the most of leftovers and any leftover fruit and veg that would otherwise be destined for the bin/compost/dog’s dinner.
  • Buying whole chickens (free range when on special as I find it tastes better) and jointing them; freezing the pieces to use whenever, and the carcasses for stock.
  • buy things in bulk (honey, tomato sauce, shampoo, handwash, shower gel, laundry powder) and decant into smaller containers. Saves money but also saves on packaging.

I think I’ve posted before on some of the things I do to use up leftovers – I should make a list so I can find them again… Oh and one thing I did at the end of last year when I had some extra cash, and lots of rewards points offers, was to stock up on a couple of weeks worth of meat. I was thinking about needing it in case of covid quarantine/isolation but it’s turned out excellent because I use that up in my meal plan, and then replace it with whatever is on special that week.

Again these are all things I enjoy doing. If I didn’t I wouldn’t do them. I also have the time to do them – I actually find some of these things help to slow me down and be present/mindful. 🙂

Oops, I did it again…

I have that song running through my head at the moment. One of the features of my ADHD is that I get an idea, and then I get another, and another, and soon I’m drowning in ideas and trying to do them all at once. Then I get overwhelmed, overloaded, and my brain just says no.

So what caused it this time. Well I decided I needed to generate some more income and I like the VA work I have done, so I’ve started a business to try and get some more work along those lines. And I enjoy the parent helper work so I’ve been expanding my hours with that as well. And of course doing that (plus looking after 4 kids of varying ages, and the parent’s home while they were away, and the normal household tasks) has meant I haven’t been doing those things that bring me some peace and calm – like the propagating, gardening, craft, etc.

*sigh* I was really feeling quite down and unsure what to do, but writing it out I can see where I need to change things. I still want to go ahead with finding one or two more clients for my VA business, and keep on with the families (mum’s) that I’ve been helping, and possibly adding one more because I really do love it, but I really do need that down time / me time, whatever it is called, and not have that be the first thing that goes each time. I’m still learning (or unlearning) how to manage life – at 52 you would think I’d have more of a handle on it 😉

June 2022

Well things seem to be actually settling into some kind of routine around here. Just in time for the school holidays! *facepalm* The weather has been a bit kinder the last week (at least in our part of the world) and there has been no heavy rains, wild winds, or freezing mornings. It’s actually the type of morning I love – sunny but cool enough that I can be out there without dying from the heat.

I was out there checking on my cuttings and plants, I lost a lot over last summer in the heat, and then the torrential rain, heat, rain, and repeat. I don’t have that many flowering plants on the go at the moment, I started to build up a bit of stock of shade/indoor plants and succulents, and I’m happy with the shade plants but the succulents don’t “spark joy” so I don’t think I’ll do more of those. The Ctenthe plants that I thought I’d lost from a certain over-exuberant puppy have started to get some nice regrowth on them, so I’m happy about that. And my parent gave me what I think is a variegated Ctenthe so I should be able to propagate that soon as well 🙂

We lost a lot of our vegie and herb plants as well – we only have 2 asparagus plants left, the herb garden got taken over by weeds so Mr T dug that up and then replaced a couple of things, the top bed is pretty bare apart from weeds and maybe one or two lettuce plants -maybe I shouldn’t advertise that with the cost of lettuce in the shops at the moment 😉 – and the bottom bed has a few tomato seedlings, snow peas and what I thought were climbing beans but they don’t seem to want to climb! I think I’ll try and get out over the weekend and get some more winter crops in. Oh and in our bed that has the compost bins I planted out some garlic, we have a couple of eggplants (they seem to self seed and keep coming back) and I have one lone zucchini seedling.

Garlic, a stray tomato or two and plenty of weeds


One of the reasons I haven’t been out in the garden as much is that I have been setting up / expanding a couple of other ways that I earn an income – virtual assistance and parent helper. I talked a bit about my virtual assistance work and expanding that here, and I need to update that page as I now have my website ready to go. I plan to “open the doors” in the new Financial Year (so in a couple of weeks!). The parent helper work comes from an idea I had at the end of last year (or maybe before that) because I know how hard it is for families trying to juggle work, children, and also trying to have some kind of life outside of those two things. My particular interest is to help parents in the early years of having children when it is most intense with sleepless nights and little time for any self care or downtime, and parents that don’t have any support network from family. I’ve been doing this “unofficially” for a while so earlier this year decided I’d start expanding this service as well. So why both? Well, because I enjoy both and I plan to only work with a few clients in each area so I’m hoping that they can work well together. If not I guess I decide which one I like better!

So that pretty much sums up what has been happening for me around the homestead – I’m also trying to keep focusing on food waste and making the most of the food we buy particularly as it sounds like times are going to get tougher financially before they get better! Oh! Something I did at the end of last month but didn’t include in that update… we had an area of our kitchen extension that was very messy. I’d used an old book case to store some appliances on and bakery things on the shelves. I liked how easy it was to access the appliances but didn’t like how it all looked so I purchased a set of drawers from Amart which gives me a nice look, they are wide/deep enough so I can put my most used appliances on top and then put all the smaller appliances, baking equipment, etc, in the drawers.

Taking a chance… and what happened next…

Over the past few years I have worked as a virtual assistant (VA) and found that it is something that I really enjoy. What is a VA I hear you ask? Well, it’s basically someone that you engage to help you in running your business; or to assist you with one off tasks such as website creation. Different VAs will have different specialities and expertise that they offer – for me, I enjoy taking on the “boring bits” of running a business so that my clients can focus on their passion, and the reason they started their business. I offer services such as data entry & transposition; customer service including answering queries and follow up; proof reading and editing; quote preparation, invoicing and payment follow up; website maintenance; and a variety of other tasks as required.

VA work also allows me to work in a way that supports my neurodiversity and mental health; and it fits in perfectly with my other commitments. So now that my youngest is settling into grade 1 and I have the time available – I am looking forward to making some new connections and providing assistance where I can.

Coming soon to a website near you….

Rachel Fordyce – Virtual Assistant

Helping you to get back to your business.

So July 1st I opened up my virtual doors. I’d created my website, my facebook page and insta account. And in the following few weeks I found myself another client or two. And then …. I saw a client sales and admin job advertised in a local FB group. And I thought why not check it out?

Turns out it was my ideal job and so a few back and forth emails, a phone interview, a quick tour of the office and overview of what the job entails, and I now have an office job. With paid leave and sick days! I’ve never had that before. The job is actually ticking so many boxes. It’s only a few minutes away from where I live; it’s in school hours so I can still do drop off and pick up; it’s a family friendly workplace so when I had to leave on the first day to go pick my son up as he’d hit his head on the concrete, it was all fine; variety – half desk work, half a little more physical; and a nice team to work with. And I work Monday to Thursday so get Fridays off.

February – May 2022

Well it has been a while since I last posted an update – whoops! Not a great deal happened in February other than getting the kids organised and settled back at school. I don’t do well in the summer heat and then it was the torrential rain keeping me in. And then on the 14th March, after a lovely weekend away at Bribie and a long over due massage I fell down the stairs. I ended up with a detached ligament and avulsion fracture. After 2 weeks in a moon boot I graduated to an ankle brace. I’ve had that on pretty constantly for the past 4 weeks and I’m *supposed* to have it on for another 2 but it’s starting to get pretty uncomfortable so I’m going to see if I can get away with strapping it instead.

So for the rest of March and most of April I haven’t been doing much at all as I was couch bound and under strict instructions from Mr T to actually rest. I did get all the Marvel movies watched though… plus Cranford, River Cottage Australia, Sense and Sensibility (two versions), Sanditon, Lark Rise to Candleford, a bunch of Doctor Who and cooking shows. Since then I have slowly been getting back to my shade houses though – they were a bit of a disaster after the rain and me not being able to get down to water them. Mr T did water a bit, but he was also doing everything around the house, for the kids and looking after me, plus his own fulltime job. Anyway they are almost looking back to their semi-tidy state and I have also managed to start propagating some more plants. Which is good because my stall is a bit bare at the moment!

One thing I have been doing (apart from when I was couch-bound) is looking at our food waste and trying to minimise what we throw out. I bought some Tupperware Vent Smart containers and they seemed to have helped. I’m not exactly sure if it’s the fact that the veg/fruit is lasting longer, or I can see what we have more easily and actually use it before it goes off. And I’ve been trying to make the most of leftovers, even small bits of veg or meat that might not be enough for a lunch on their own – they can be thrown into a soup, frittata, fried rice, or savoury pancake. I think I’ll have to do a separate post of these ideas so when I get distracted by something else and forget, I can refer back to it!


I prefer the savoury pancakes to frittata as they aren’t as “eggy”. I add a bit of Chinese 5 spice to the batter and have them with soy. Very handy for me to have in the freezer for an easy breakfast. So I am pretty happy with that side of things – it not only cuts down on food waste but also saves money and fits in with the idea of trying to live more lightly on the earth. And thinking about ways of using up leftovers and preventing waste is very satisfying. I am itching to get back into the garden though after a long hiatus.

I mentioned earlier that I watched River Cottage Australia and that has me inspired a little. That and the cooler weather! I have some garlic ready to be planted (I already had it in this time last year, but I’ve heard most plant around ANZAC day so I should be fine) and have planned out what else I want to plant just now. I do have to make sure that I don’t overdo it as my ankle is still far from healed, so I’ll need to take it a bit slowly and rely on Mr T a fair bit. I’ve also been following Self Sufficient Me on Facebook/You Tube a bit. He’s up in the same climate as I am so it’s good to see what works for him. One of the things I like about his approach is that you don’t have to be (and probably can’t) be self sufficient in *everything* but just try for self sufficiency in some things. Oh and I treated myself to the book Costa’s World for added inspiration.

So the above was all written at the end of April – it’s now coming to the end of May and I still haven’t posted it! The rains have come back, we seem to get one or two dry days and then rain again. Our dryer is getting a workout which isn’t great but there’s no way I can dry 6 people’s worth of clothes without it, so I’m grateful to have the option! I am mobile now, no more ankle brace, but I’ve got a fair bit of rehab to do. I was hoping to start walking but the rain is interfering with that a bit! Oh and I’ve had a bit of a think about something I want to do in the second half of the year, and I’ll post about that soon 🙂 And hopefully I won’t leave it as long between updates again!

An Omicron state of mind

I’m feeling … I don’t know the word for it. But somehow this year already feels a bit like it’s out of control and it’s only mid February. The Omicron Wave has messed up my head a bit. Like for 2 years here in Qld we fought so hard to keep case numbers low and deaths to a minimum. We weren’t popular at times, but we were relatively safe and leading our lives to the best we could. Each death was a tragedy no matter how old or young, the person’s state of health, disabled or not. And then December last year, just as we were opening our borders the Omicron variant arrived in Australia. I thought, ok, we’ll have borders open for Christmas/New Year and then shut them again temporarily, have our snap lockdowns, and get it back under control. But no. Borders remained open, no real restrictions, no attempt at slowing the spread. Case numbers rose dramatically and we were told to expect to catch Covid at some point. But it’s for the good of the economy and getting back to normal life. Unless of course you catch Covid and die, or suffer from Long Covid in which case … well … what? How many people have we “lost” because now apparently we loose them, instead of acknowledging their death. How many families have been heartbroken needlessly. I don’t think we would have had so many deaths if we’d approached this more cautiously.

I find it incredibly disturbing that we are being asked to accept these high numbers of cases and deaths and say “it’s good”, “it’s what needs to happen”. I can’t do it. So I’m not listening to the pressers any more. I can’t. I can’t listen to “the numbers are blah, blah, but this is what we expected, we are on track”.

Of course I do understand that we need to return to some kind of normal. But how different would it have been if we didn’t open a flood gate? If we allowed people time to get their vaccines and boosters before letting Omicron rip through the communities. Time for people to prepare *before* rather than putting “Covid preparedness kits” together afterwards.

I’m not sure how to deal with all the Covid stuff but hopefully letting it out here will help. I’ll talk to my psychologist about it too. And then on top of that there’s the normal life admin of running a house with 4 kids that are all at different important stages. I have a feeling this isn’t going to be the slower year I was hoping for!